User blog:CITRONtanker/A fond farewell

Greetings. You might have noticed that I have not been around this wiki, or at the very least been demoted, lately. Well, I have a simple reason as to why- I have took time to reflect about what has been happening over the last few days, and it is with a very heavy heart to announce my leave from this wiki.

Your gut reaction might be to think that I am leaving because of the RP branch being shut down- but in actuality, that is not why I am leaving at all.

I am leaving because the drama here is really stressing me out, and is actually starting to affect me in real life- I have a really emotional personailty, and is something upsets me, it really gets me down and makes me feel miserable. And since I likely contirbuted to this drama to some extent, I only feel worse about it. I really hope some of you guys can relate to my sometimes volatile mood swings.

On that note, I also want to formaly and sincerely apologize to everyone and anyone who participated in the RP vote- I was being incredibly selfish and jerky, and looking back, I feel horrible and abusive towards what might be some of the nicest people I may ever meet. I want to apologize for my behaviour and blatant misunderstanding for why people did this vote in the first place. And although it might be too little, too late, I really want to apologize to Mental- I toook it way too far dude, and I'm sorry.

I debated with others about whether to stay here or not, but after a long conversation, I feel leaving here, at least temporarily, is for the best. I need time to cool off, reflect on how I have acted, and if I return, become an even better person. And assuming I join staff again, I will strive to be an example to others, and help this wiki become a better place. I really don't want to make things any worse around here, which I felt I did on the thread (again, I'm sorry).

I want to say something from the bottom of my heart- I love this place, I really do. I have met extraordinary individuals here, whom I have connected with and had tons of fun and laughs with- and this only makes my decision even more painful to me. I really do, deep down, appreicate each and every one of you here, as you all have different personalities and interests that make you unique- they make you, well, you! If you take one thing away from me, I hope it's that. And, if I feel my emotions are in check, maybe someday, I will come back.

And that is really all I got. I'm going to miss things around here, but I really cannot help out around here if my emotions are like this. I'm not being cowardly, and I certainly don;t want to be a jerk- I am doing this for the state of the wiki, and for everyone who uses it. I will be on other Wiki's, and if you want to, I will definetly talk with you there.

I would like to thank all the pals I made on this wiki, who gave my hobby of PvZ meaning- I want to thank the staff of the wiki, for making this place better each and every day, especially the ones who worked with me. And finally, I want to thank you. That's right- you reading this blog means a lot to me, as this is something I wanted to get out of my system.

Farewell, my dear friends. Really, it was a pleasure to be with you all.

Best wishes, CITRONtanker.