User blog:PEASHOOTERFAN/Clearing Things Up

Okay, so a while ago I left without any warning and left any roleplays I was managing or participating in, plus an RPG. Well, the truth about that is... I don't really want to have to deal with those anymore.

I honestly came back here for a fresh restart. Why I came in the first place is because I wanted to hang out with others in a way Roblox couldn't do justice. I started Overcast as an experiment since I had never hosted a roleplay before. You could see the mistakes and nervousness from the first few posts alone, and I didn't think I would get much attention. When Overcast became even more popular, though, is when I started to worry. I often disappointed myself in the direction I took the story in, and since I already had a few people who enjoyed it, I only put pressure on myself. So I did what any idiot would do and made two more, in which I also did very stupid things. I kept doing things I didn't want to because I didn't want to disappoint anyone who I had already made good friends with. I also joined an RPG, Sunken Pyramid, along with a few other roleplays and another RPG gaining in popularity.

Another thing which made me stop is that I didn't feel anything I did was original. Overcast was made after I had put interest into joining another roleplay which I felt already had too many characters. Overcast and that other roleplay are very similar, except I still feel that my version was a rip-off of what could've been something much better written. The most original thing I've ever come up with is Attempt of the Lost, except I kinda didn't know what I was doing with the story. I never had time to plan what to do because of Overcast alone, so how do you think it went with three custom roleplays with stupid names, one other roleplay (The PvZ Institute), a few forum games, AND two complicated RPGs? I make stupid choices, but this was too much!

I'm sorry for my inactivity, but I felt some closure had to be delivered. If anyone is reading this, and I already play as a character in your roleplay, it would be best if you remove me and pretend I didn't deliver anything to the story. I'm also going to have to cancel the three roleplays I manage. Yes, even Overcast. Maybe when I'm ready I'll make my own again, but for now I'm going to have to stick to being a follower.