Board Thread:Weekly discussions/@comment-27385163-20180825210433/@comment-27138615-20180826163311

It's pretty dead now, staff discussions are only participated by like 3 people and the staff server itself is also usually pretty dead if it weren't for wonshu. I'm honestly just an admin now just for the sake of being one, not like there's much to do if you're aren't into Chinese content or Heroes. The franchise is, and in effect, the wiki... somewhat ironically, a zombie on life support.

I honestly feel incomplete without common access of being able to talk to you guys. School is tiring and the teachers are fed up with us, but even with drawing and such, I still feel kinda sad and lonely. Even the reason why I became more inactive (to join an art contest) kinda became in vain because I didn't even really win and well... Now they're just mostly looking for pixel artists to work for them, which I'm not.

But eh, this is my childhood place from 2014 to June 22, 2018, and I feel really grateful to be a part of it even there were questionable decisions on the way. I still miss everyone so much but my parents aren't ever really going to allow me to come back ever. You can still contact me via SoaringSprocket#1527, but it's never really going to be the same. Even if I come back, I probably won't really be into the place the same way I was before.

Nevertheless, I find it rude to just talking about the bad. Because this place did ultimately, waaaay more good than bad. This place helped me mold who I overall was. Remember when everyone kept talking about how mature I was and saying that they thought I was over 14-15? Well, over time, I got over the shell I had to be in and overall, I let out who I truly was. A happy-go-lucky person who loved being alive and seeing what life has.

It also helped me improve in art because I just drew you guys so much. I think I drew Pinkgirl over 20 times in my entire life (and that is somewhat embarrassing to admit). And still, it helped me improve and tried to make me be more calmer. Back then I gave into seeing what other people did and swore a lot... which honestly I regret. Now, I want to be able to help out people even more and make them smile. As I told so many close brethren throughout the years, overall, my truest and dearest dream was to make people smile and brighten up their days.

And it also helped me on what career I wanted the most while being able to compromise into one that would help us live into a somewhat comfortable life. Wiki Days and the Friend Sim, despite them failing pretty hard due to overshooting and overworking myself, helped me realize something.

It made me finally decided what I wanted to be when I grow up, despite my mom wanting me to be forced into the medical field. And so, as of now, I'll be studying (and doing so well enough, I hope, I actually try to study more even if hypothyroidism gets in the way) to get into the technological field. Dad even supports my decision despite mom keeping on saying that medical is the safest field to go into (dad actually disagrees with this because he thinks that everything will be computerized in the future).

Remember when I always said that I was better off dead? Well, I guess after some time... I just feel so happy being here. Even with all the downs happening now, I try to hold on into living. There are also a huge amount of wonderful people in here. I love sharing the joys and beauty of life with the more happy folk, and even those who are critical. For the latter, I also appreciate what they tell me. Even if I don't feel as happy not being on the server anymore, the memories and the impact are what should matter the most... Even if I forget them often due to my sicknesses and stress.

That's the most important part of it all. Without you guys, I might have been waaaay different. On my crust, I seem like a quiet type. Apparently someone in school admires me for being "smart," but I honestly don't think that's who I am the most. The mantle might show me warming up a bit, but still a bit boring. But this is where the impact comes in, just like an asteroid crashing down into a planet. The core of me back then was more... let's say emotionless. Now I feel happier and more willing to smile.

So even if I had my downs... OFTEN... I love this place. It made me able to relate to people and find who i really was. And even if a lot of you don't feel that way... Someday you'll be able to see that sweet spot. Even with all the insults, dirty jokes, whipping (I'm looking at you, Drek), and most importantly, pointless drama, this place still has a point. A place where people can get together and smile. I actually joined this place after WMag and Wintermelon vandalized the Lalaloopsy Land Wiki, but I honestly don't really regret it even though I have the most fluctuating of emotions.

It also made me meet the person who made me feel like the luckiest girl alive, aaaaaaaa