Board Thread:Reporting station/@comment-7091122-20160704162533/@comment-30014209-20160704212430

Excuse me, have you ever been addicted to something, so disgusting, that you feel it's a drug, but you're too weak to fight, for a good ammount of time of your life?

Have you ever known how a socially awkward person feels when you're just welcomed when it comes to a group homework, a school exam, or simply some meaningless school "mini-exams" that are worth nothing?

Know the feel of having a single person that granted you happyness, to later be left alone, still addicted, having considerably high ammount of thoughts, whose sightly broke your mind, even if just for months, or around a year?

Felt abandoned, alone, while everyone is with a couple, while everyone is calm and free from your addiction, felt that you couldn't fight your addiction at all, but rather would be a picture/drawing slave, whose would always hide in the shadows for see, and later, do said act?

I'm not sure wether you did any of this or not, but i was on a situation like that.

I felt terrible, i felt dirty, i felt. . .Depressed.

But, i recovered didn't i? I got away from the photos, shadow hidding for bad acts, the addiction doesn't hold me like a chain anymore, it does sometimes come, but when it comes it doesn't feel good, so it just boosts my will to fight it. I don't have the weird tastes i had anymore, they still pop in my mind, but they don't make me directly search for them.

I got over the fact my only real friend at the time left me, and got new ones, learnt a lot of things, got inspiration, used said inspiration, learnt more, progressed more, felt much more alive after leaving the addiction and other things.

Stopped the whole abandoned thing, recogonized my family was here always, that the 2 friends i had on school were here, that the small group of friends i had on a thread about a game were here.

Recogonized i shouldn't give up, i shouldn't let a small, evil, disgusting part of me control me, but rather, get away from it, get... free from that terrible part of me, i'm not saying i turned into a saint, i'm just saying, i tried, and i will keep trying to get that part of me away, to get myself... "cleaner", i WILL get myself cleaner, less awkward, and i WILL get my mind stable again, i WILL get my mind to think good things, to think of a pun every once in a while, to think about my family, the people i care for and love, i WILL, fix this, thanks to God.

The only advices i can tell you, is, first of all, try to talk it out, see if you can make it end, make said "problems" you have with pinkgirl end. Didn't work? Take a break, relax, rest a bit from the wiki, think about everything you had and have, about everyone that cares for you, then try again. Didn't work either? Look for your faith, for your hope. Be it reading, learning, studying the Bible, be it your way, be it by playing a game, whatever makes you feel better, get faith, get hope, i still think you could just take a break, but your case doesn't seem something this small.

I tell you, read the Bible, seek advice through it, pray, take some part of your time to read it, some part of your time to think about life and the people that care for you.

But well, those are just my thoughts, you may take them or not, really up to nobody but YOU