User blog:DeathZombi/Outside the wiki life

I really want to get admin soon but there are lots of obstacles to overcome to become one. Some of you know my goal and some of you think I deserve it once I get the chance to aim for it. In this wiki, I can be grouchy and irritated sometimes but I tend to be there to help, voice my opinions, and make things fun but sometimes I can start arguments... (Sorry ZN723 for acting aggressive towards you when we first met.) That's how life is... ups and down.... but my real life is just an unrecoverable downward spiral...

I kept some details and I can't keep it bottled anymore...

Right now I am a target from harassment and bullying, some from people I don't even know, and some from my 'friends'.

Right now I am dealing with life being so stressful and I feel like giving up at times.

Right now I am suffering from severe depression for all the harassment I take in.

Right now the school I go to is doing nothing to stop or attempt to stop the harassment...

Most importantly, I am fighting chances of committing suicide...

I even started a list of the people in my life who aren't messed up to me. I mean I am starting to hate society and almost everyone....

1 thing that stops me from ending my own life is this place. I mean, do I want to cause distress to my dearest friends here for doing something so tragic and horrific?

All in all, my life is just screwed up... and I have no one to support me...

I had to break out the truth. I can't pretend to be happy and content when in reality, I hate my very own existance...