Board Thread:Plants vs. Zombies Wiki discussion/@comment-27138615-20160705172545/@comment-7091122-20160706012327

'I'm going to be saying some harsh things here, so don't tell me I didn't warn you about that. And if you end up being shocked at anything rude I say here, that's on you.'

Pinkgirl234 wrote: For this drama to end once and for all, it's time I have to tell you all what I just did. So I decided to give myself my own punishment.

I hope this is enough.

'''I've seen more than enough "reform" attempts to know where this is headed. A one way trip to nowhere.'''

Listen, if you want to know the threshold where I consider you "better" and will be willing to accept you, well it's very simple. I can even say it in a word, without even numbers or complicated math.

Never.

'You've given me suicidal thoughts. I've literally wanted death over having to be near you''. I'd rather swallow a bunch of pills, and stab myself, and end it all, over having to deal with you, since at least I wouldn't have to suffer because of you anymore. At least then I wouldn't have to hear these panic attacks constantly berating me. At least then I wouldn't go to sleep at night and have a nightmare of you raping me. Yes, that actually happened.'''

Do you honestly think I see any redemption in that? Do you think I want to forgive the person, and I use that word loosely, who gives me nothing but agonizing stress and panic attacks? All you do to me is cause me depression and absolute agony, and yet you get away with it. I've had enough of this, and I try to stop it, and now you're attempting to woo me, much less the entire wiki, with the "new" Pinkgirl, while completely ignoring what I say?

The reason Sonic Colors worked for Sonic after Sonic '06 was because it was a bad video game, and not actually causing mental trauma. But if Hitler did a "reform", I can tell you right now nobody would have an inch of it.

Do you see a rapist try to reform after they're called out by their rape victims, and the rape victim likes their rapist? If you said yes, you're completely out of your mind, and I'm reporting you to your nearest mental asylum for being out of your mind.

"But Cam, Pink, Hitler, and a rapist are all completely diff--" YES THEY ARE, BUT YOU GET THE POINT, NOW HUSH IT.

'''I've never seen a reform work. Ever.''' Every New Years Resolution gets gunned down and ignored by January 2nd. I know a guy who's father has attempted several reforms, and guess what has never been remembered for more than a week on his part? I also know another guy who "reformed" after bullying and spamming. He had 6 alt accounts, each being permanently banned, before he finally hit a threshold where he wouldn't be banned, and actually semi-decent, and I still can just barely tolerate him.

"Reform" is literally the "cringe" or "abelist" of words used in regards to bettering one's self; I've seen it used so many times, in so many meaningless contexts, and never actually accomplished in the end, that it just has zero meaning. You're literally better off just coming clean and saying "I won't change an inch because screw you" than to create the illusion that "reforming" brings, because that's basically what I'm seeing.

'''I'm sick of this. I'm sick of this all.''' I flat out say that the only thing that'd make this stop is you leave, and your response is to "reform" and magically expect everything to fix itself.

If you really could be "any kind of girl" and wanted to be the one that'd stop this all, you'd leave. You'd have left this wiki you've forsaken, and with it, exited my life and ended the torment you've laid upon me. And not "reformed" in a way that I know will inevitably have absolutely nothing happen as a result, and if anything, everybody will blindly say you "reformed" and ignore anytime you cause me torment in the future because you must be better. After all, you "reformed," so you can't possibly have caused me torment! Say, is that a van that says free candy? BRB, gonna get some candy!

Anyhow, with that said, I'll see you all when I get a warning, nothing's taken into consideration, and we get to repeat these 2-5 months all over again, except I get even WORSE by the end of it. And then, I'll be back in when we're back in this situation where I'm getting suicidal thoughts, but with the new "reformed" Pinkgirl instead.

And then, we'll get to do this again. And again. And again. And again. Until I'm nothing more than what basically amounts to a writhing mass of flesh with nothing it can do but scream and cry, as nobody pays attention to its suffering.

'''Why do I even bother when I know nothing's going to happen in the long run... God, I don't even know why I'm bothering replying to you. Nothing's going to change at all. I know exactly what'll happen, so why am I bothering?'''

It's this sort of thing that is why I want to kill myself in the first place.