Board Thread:Reporting station/@comment-4009269-20170710233215/@comment-7091122-20170711000508

Pinacoin wrote: Camwood777 wrote: Seriously? It's like I said, everything I do I end up being the bad guy. Even when I blatantly enforce the rules against harassment.

For the record, I was not using any loopholes. I was muted off the server and had no other choice if I wanted to speak with TCLP.

And, of course, you make it a point that I "turn down people helping me", without recognizing why I do so. I bring this up in my latest blog. Long story short, even if I got the "help", it wouldn't do a thing. The outcome would still be the same, negative result. So why bother with it if it won't do a thing? All it does, is delay the inevitable, and waste time and energy.

And don't realize my own flaws? Seriously? I do that. I do more than that. The problem is that I feel like absolutely nobody here wants to do that themselves. They want to treat me as just the bad guy who stirs up drama, so even if I do recognize my flaws, it's as good as if I didn't. And what good is it if I'm doing it, if nobody recognizes it, much less their own?

If you're honestly surprised by a word I've said, you likely have not listened to a word I've said the past few weeks. I've been forced into constant situations where I have zero freedom in what I do, I lost my great grandmother, I have to worry about being too busy for my friends resulting in me losing them and being unable to stop them, and NOW I have to worry about being punished for having the gull, the nerve, to be upset about people treating me poorly, and have to fight for my life to make sure I'm not going to unfairly lose something I spent 1.5 years working for.

In short, I recognize my problems, and I'm listening.

The real question is, are you. See, you're saying that it won't help if you get help...

But have you even tried hard enough? I have four therapists, medication, therapy objects, and everything else known to man. I tried all the tactics regurgitated from the internet like "go outside" or "get a therapist" or "call a suicide hotline." But guess what? It's not that easy. It's a little thing called depression.