User blog:Lily8763cp/Zombie Journal 3 - The Meeting

It's been a while with these. Guess I just...lost interest in it. I can't say for sure this means the GW2 story will be finished, but I want to at least try.

Entry 57
It has been 3 days since we decided to try and work together. The problem started when their stupid leader and I started arguing. But I felt like I had to say something. Did she really think I'd just...AGREE to help the enemy? I mean...[https://plantsvszombies.fandom.com/wiki/User_blog:Lily8763cp/PvZ:_GW_Saga_Part_10_-_Enter_Infinity! I guess I have], but that was because we were all stuck in that...strange place, all alone. And now those little things from that world are here, and if what I had discovered is true, they're now in control of that Traitor.

Our latest talk started the same as the last 3 times. I suggested some things they'd give back to us, and she did too, but we could never agree. Sometimes she refused to give something back, and sometimes I refused. She wanted the Infinity Robots we were working on! How did she even find out we were making new ones? I heard rumors that she could glance into the future, but I never took it seriously.

This one got fairly nasty after she brought that up. After I got over my initial shock, I started shouting at her. I finally had enough of her for the day. I was shouting so much at her, I forget most of what I said, though I know I called her more of a freak than those other Plants and how it was her fault that things got to this point. If she really could see in the future, why didn't she try and destroy them?!?!?!

I think I had touched a nerve. She stuttered at first, saying how she couldn't see that happening, and if she did, she would've been more careful around him, but I kept shouting more and more, until she used a spell on me and kicked me out. At this rate, we'll never be able to agree on something.

And I really don't want to have to work with them out of the "goodness of my heart", ew.

Entry 58
I've decided that I'm going to bring Foot Soldier with me. He might be able to keep both of us within reason. He's a military expert, he has to know what is worth it. I've already prepared a list of things I want from them, and I told him to look over it. Personally I think it is all reasonable, but knowing that Rose, they'll think it is insane. I mean, all I want is - And a few other things that I felt weren't that valuable to them.
 * My House Back
 * One of those strange Rose wands for research
 * The bay by both our bases
 * Full access to the sewers

When I showed him the list, he groaned. "First off, scratch off the Rose wand thing, there is no way she will give you one of those.", and then he crossed off almost everything else on the list, except for my house. "Hey! What are you doing?" I shouted at him, it is like shouting is just an instinct at this point, and he just glared at me. "Most of this is too much. You need to request smaller things."

I wasn't sure what he was thinking. If that Rose was going to ask for things like our Infinity Robots, we had to ask for big things back. I think he could tell what I was thinking, because he assured me that we could easily refuse requests like that. "There just needs to be enough for both sides to benefit" he explained, and then put down a list of his own, that started with "Expendable". I knew what that meant. It was a list of places or objects he thought we'd be able to get rid of with no problem. And he was right with most of it, as much as it pained me.

It took about 2 hours, because I kept thinking of things that he was convinced were too big, and I kept trying to scratch things off of his list. But eventually what we agreed to request was...interesting. Though I fear that if we get what we want, the boss will lose it. It started with just one human object...but then it kept pilling up. Over and over and over. More things that the humans have that we don't. Their books, their movies, even their toys. I don't even know how it happened.

But I mean...I guess there is a little human in me, hoping to get out. Hoping to spread all the knowledge it has back into me, after its death lead to me, especially because I've held it in for so long. If I told anyone else, I'm sure they would think I am insane, and the last thing I want now is to be called unfit to command.

Entry 59
To my surprise, Rose had someone with her today for our meeting as well, that Cactus fellow. I don't know why she picked her of all her troops, though I heard a quick mumble that she "reminds me of you." Great, she must think I'm a sarcastic jerk then. But looking back at this whole war, I guess there have been times I wasn't really a good person, especially to my own troops.

With slight shame, I passed her the list Foot Soldier and I had made. Rose slowly read it, but I think her partner read it faster, since she looked in shock.

"Are you for real?" was the first response, and just the kind of response I expected from that Cactus. I couldn't get a word out of me, so Foot Soldier assured her that yes, this was what we wanted. She started to read the list out loud, with a surprised tone in her voice, before slamming it down. "From what I heard from the previous meetings, you wanted territories and weapons, but now you just want your house and a ton of human...things?!?!", she clearly was at a lost, and Rose had to pat her.

"This is...bizarre." she mumbled under her breath, before looking up "I assume you don't want to give up much, if this is what you want." Then it finally clicked. The reason why Foot Soldier put all those human things on the list was so we wouldn't give up much either. It was actually quite genius. Suddenly I felt way more confident, and started to talk again. But eventually, I felt like someone else was talking. That it wasn't me. It wasn't my nature to me so into whatever humanity had, and then I said something that I'll be honest, even I didn't know.

"And this book was similar to the one I was starting to read in college."

Everyone stopped, and everyone was now starring at me. I was starring at myself. I...had no memory of me in a college. What was I saying? I must've had some memory, if I would say something like that. I glance over, and Foot Soldier looks highly uncomfortable. I don't think he knows how we can move on from that.

After a few minutes, Rose broke the ice. "So...you are starting to remember your past?" she asked. Of course, the "all wise Plant" knows we have no memory. I had to nod, what was I going to do if I didn't? I told her I had no idea what I was saying and to my surprise, she just tapped my shoulder. "Don't be nervous, I agree to your proposal. Let me give you a list of what I want from you." and then she put her list on. Everything went smoothly afterwards, she even gave us permission to stay here while we planned our move against our enemy, but something inside was eating me up.

Entry 60
There is one thing I have to give the Plants' base credit for. They have much nicer views. I sat along the base's walls, looking up at the stars. I was thinking to myself over what I had said. I don't know how it even happened. I have had thoughts entering my head for a while now. It started when I decided to copy what I saw in that dream so long ago. Well...I only got to the first part. I couldn't get myself to turn it on. I knew how much it would hurt. Eventually, I knew those thoughts were my old self's memories, that was for sure. But how recreating my death brought them back, I don't know.

"Surprised you're here."

I glanced over, to my surprise, it was that Cactus. I have no idea how she found me, or why she wanted to. Before she said anything, I grumbled "I can't get over what happened." I think she understood what I was talking about, because before I knew it, she was sitting down next to me, giggling a little.

"It was so...random." and then she glanced at me. "Have any of your other troops had that problem?" At first I was going to say no, but really, who knows? I know there have been troops convinced that they know their deaths, that they know their previous life. But they're called mad, just like how I feared I'd be called...

I nodded out of instinct. "I mean, I don't know for certain, but I'm sure there's somebody."

I thought she'd snark at me, but she didn't say much of anything. She just looked ahead. "So, about that Chemist guy..."

Ugh, not this.

"...what happened to make him...you know, betray you?"

She's talking about him.

"Are you listening to me?" and then, she slapped my arm "Hey! Put your arms down!"

I looked at my body, I didn't realize that I was covering my ears, and so I put them down. "Listen, I apologize. I...just don't want to talk about him.", I didn't want to say what happened. But she was determined to get something out of me. "Listen, we're on the same side right now. He's the enemy, you can badmouth him as much as you want to." And something about that made me want to say as much as I could.

"He was the commander of the Chemist section for a while. But eventually, he was sick of this war. Of course, we all were, but he was...something else. He decided to go to extreme measures. At first, he planned on launching a sort of nuke over a few places, to wipe out both sides, and tried to create other sort of weapons just to cause destruction. I wasn't going to let that slide, so I kicked him out." I couldn't explain everything. I couldn't tell her how she messed with the genes of a few innocent Zombies. I couldn't tell her how he tried to attack me in my sleep. And I for sure couldn't tell her how I was the one that caused his death and he knew it. I groaned to myself, I'm a coward.

I think she could tell that I wasn't 100% honest, but it was good enough for her. She was just about to leave when she suddenly stopped. "Have you seen anyone acting odd?" she asked. She asked me. A Zombie. If a Plant was acting weird.

"You all act weird to me" I honestly answered, and she groaned. "A few days ago...apparently this traitor of yours said there was a spy. I haven't told anyone else but...it's been bothering me way too much." I was surprised with how honest she was being with me, and before I could even think, I blurted something out "Who do you think that spy is?"

Silence.

It looked like what she was going to say next was going to hurt. She sighed and answered me "...I think it is that Future Cactus." I was surprised by that answer. From what I heard, while they have been quiet, they have been a huge help for their army. "Hear me out." she started "It is that silence. She didn't say a word when that Engineer mentioned it. And she has been more and more secretive since. That's the only reason." then, she gave me another look "Keep an eye out on her, ok?" and I nodded. After that, she finally left.

Oddly, I was angry with myself. I have told more to the enemy than to any of my troops. How could I be a good commander like this? I decided then, I was going to tell the army everything after this war. I was going to word it in a way that I wouldn't get in trouble, but I was going to say everything.

I headed to where we were meant to stay. I've stayed up way too late writing this entry and the last, but...something about everything that has happened today. I feel it is going to be important.

- 2nd in command, Scientist

Trivia

 * I'll be honest, I don't know what to put here. I have a bit of a writer's block, but I feel bad leaving this series to basically die so close to the end.

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