Board Thread:Plants vs. Zombies Wiki discussion/@comment-27138615-20160705172545/@comment-24863355-20160706003508

Camwood777 wrote:

Wizmalk wrote: Also Cam, '''I think the community's definition of all the hoo-hah about taking a break is to at least try to find a way to separate yourself from Pink, and begin fighting inside to clear your mind of whatever influence she's bringing. (Yes, I know that cannot be defined by "take a break." We live in a weird place.) I know that sounds difficult (and probably is, since even a mentally sound person can struggle doing this), but it seems that's the best thing you can do yourself.''' So you want me to literally isolate me from my friends and force myself to have to listen to my thoughts, and start trying to fight them?

That's literally how me telling people about this all began, except now, you want me to be away from everybody who cares about me.

If I do that, I don't want to see you be shocked to see me return completely defeated by my own mind, constantly screaming about how Pinkgirl has hurt me, and yearning for death. Because you're the one who basically wanted me to put myself into that situation. I don't want to do any of this at all. Notice how I said "the community" and didn't refer to myself in any way.

I don't advocate any methods the community is suggesting, either. Not because I don't like them, or I don't support them, but because if you push something, it creates pressure somewhere. Usually somewhere undesirable.

Basically, I was relaying what the community seems to be saying, but I'm not with them. I'm just sitting here, scared to death of the potential outcome of this situation, unable to find a true solution... I really am, and I mean that from the bottom of my heart.

You were all that was on my mind for a day or two. I wanted to flush those thoughts out, just like what's happening with Pink. But of course, the feelings towards another sapient being transcend all mental boundaries, and maybe that's why it's so tough for us to interact with each other. Now I find it a miracle we can even do the interactions we call "normal."

I can actually feel myself shaking as I type this. I've only ever made outbursts of (often justified) rage in my recent years, but if anything happens to you, the mental block stopping me from making an outburst of sorrow for real might finally be destroyed. All for a human being I only know as a moderator of /r/fnafcringe and a discussion mod for this very wiki, let alone a person I have never even tried to interact with like this, besides my friends.