Board Thread:Internal management/@comment-7091122-20160526014234/@comment-28569945-20160526041517

Pinkgirl234 wrote: Camwood777 wrote; Have you been subject to 9 months of mental torture and agony, with nothing but stress, hatred, and a loss of sense of self being strung throughout it? I hardly even go a day without having a nasty thought. One of how things could've went wrong. Of how I could've been suffering right now. Of how I would be in an eternal hell on earth, for all intents and purposes.

And you're telling me, that me being in agony over even a little bit of pain, when all I have felt for about 55% of the time for the past 9 months, is overreacting?

I hardly even know who I am anymore; I can only barely tell a few things about myself, and they're all basics. The rest, I rely on what people say about me.

And all I've learned from you is that I'm always wrong. I'm powerless. I'm a whiny overreacting idiot. I'm just not a good person at all. And you're not the first one to sing these songs, so who am I to say you're incorrect? How am I supposed to know I'm not whiny? How?

Tell me. Please. No, really. Tell me how I'm supposed to know. Because as far as I know, I'm not. Because I can't. When I can't even tell you what I'm like myself, how am I supposed to know what I'm told I'm like is wrong? The overreacting part I am referring is only about your reaction when TULO gave you that warning.

Camwood, I may not have gone through 9 months of mental depression of any sort but I have gone through certain cruelties in life. My father left us twice (and he is still out of the picture), I have been ocassionally bullied and...well that's all I mostly know. When my father left us, I really wanted to shout in frustration at him while I tell him why he would be so cruel to do such a thing (as well as hurt the woman who intentionally took my father). When I was bullied, I often can't help but wish that I snapped into insanity and hurt them back. But I learned to overcome these cruelties thanks to the wonderful friends I had, thanks to my loving relatives and most importantly, thanks to the One above.

I don't know what you are going though right now but all I want to say is don't be too hard on yourself. If people keep saying horrible and cruel things about you, don't believe in them. Love yourself. There are people who love and care for you. There are people who are willing to be your friend and to help you stand up when you fall.

Part of my job as a staff member is to help. I am willing to help you. You can always talk to me if you feel down. I'll listen to you. I have experienced conversing with people who feel down or depressed. Just remember: there are a lot of people who care about you. This is sad and depressing for me.