User blog:Lily Terry the Fairy/Just realized I haven't send my proper goodbye

The last time I stayed in the wiki was July 22nd last year. I left during an outrage because I couldn't control myself. I admit I was a fool back then (and I still am), and it was my fault. I shouldn't have done that. I'm sorry. This wiki is one of the first places I visited when I first have access to the internet (where I live was poor back then and I don't have internet until what? 13 years old?) and frankly, I had a good time with this. People are friendly and very supportive. I remember Microphone DJ 125 (don't know if I get his name right) was the person encouraged me to get Chat Mod, which helped with my self-confidence a lot. Lots of people here are also really great (I barely remember 25% of them though. Time flies). Everything went great and smooth. until the hacking incident comes. Looking back, the whole wiki vs. discord thing is ridiculous. People were going hams after each other. And I was affected by the shitstorm too (pretty sure most people did). Combine that with my emo phase and it's just horrendous. Looking back, my behavior was unacceptable, and I have no excuse for that. I'm deeply sorry for my attitude. Even later on, I'm still not any better. Looking back, I can't do anything but cringe at my past self. To Lily8763cp: That argument in your role-play thread was unnecessary. I know it was too long ago and you probably forgot, but still, sorry. To Electric Plants: I vaguely remember that I was being an ass to Discord users. I think I targeted you? I don't know, I don't really remember. If I did, sorry. If I didn't, sorry anyways. That was inexcusable. This goes to all other Discord users as well. To Elemec/Light Bomber: I know we are now good friends, but still, sorry for that one blog dedicated to attacking you only. That was a very stupid thing to do. To Zambie: That comment I made in that one satire blog post is hostile and insulting. I shouldn't have done that. I could have handled that better or not doing that at all, but nope, my mind fucked with my heart. I'm sorry. To Squirrel: I vaguely remember being hostile to you that one time in the chat, and honestly it shouldn't be that way. Admittedly, you have improved from your past self and you went from a bannable person to a helpful and great fellow. You have improved, a lot, and I'm happy about that. To Phantom of Ra: I was an ass, an absolute ass, and I shouldn't be like that. Not only the exposure, but also my general behavior to you later on. Either I changed or you changed. Probably me. You have done nothing wrong. I'm sorry. To Whatevzz: That argument in DM is very stupid and I should have handled that more maturely. Sorry. To Drek, FC, and Pink: The argument happened that day is stupid. It ended with me calling you all out, which is a very shitty thing to do. I'm sorry. I couldn't control myself and I will forever blame myself for that. I might have missed a couple more. If I did, I'm sorry to you all. I have no excuse for my behavior and I don't expect any forgiveness. Not like I deserved any. At the moment, I'm currently having a happy life. It's still shitty but at least it's not like before. I think my depression is gone now and my grade is getting better. I also have made a couple of good friends out there and frankly I'm happy with my current life. At the moment I have no intention to return, and probably not in the future neither. It's probably for the best. Send my loves to Discord staff, both the old and the new. They changed from what to be a toxic wasteland into a great place to hang out. Props for that. I'm grateful for what this community has given me. Even though I was an ass, this place has given me some of the best moment and I'm thankful for that. This place also helped me to become a better person and I can't thank for that enough. I will forever remember this community. Fairy, Pink, PvZABFan, Jack, TULO, TCLP, Mic, etc,.. you guys rock. I will still be online (it has become an important part of my life now, but at least it is still controllable), but honestly I don't want to give out any detail of my identity. I want to start fresh, and redeem myself. Some of you know who my new self is now, but for those who don't, eh probably don't come to me. It's for the best. I have done nothing much for the wiki anyways. Once again, I'm sorry for my past attitude. It was shit and I have no excuse for that. And I'm thankful for that wiki has given me. I had fun with this place and I really love to revisit it once again. But now, time has passed, and my past attitude along with my own grief doesn't allow me coming back. I must move on, and so do us. If getting past my old self and try to become a better person is the last thing I could do to make the wiki a better place, then I will willingly do it. Goodbye, and thank you all.